patter.
the rain gently fell
she treaded the dim-lit avenue
gravity pulled raindrops gracefully from her umbrella
puddles gave her feet a tingling feeling
suddenly
a sudden rush of blood
a tight arm around her neck
drained every inch of energy within her
hand on the trigger
"give everything to me!"
she gave in
after what seemed to be years
she found herself alone
under the now-heavy rain
raindrops violently disturb her beautiful umbrella
shadows cover her earth
her feet shivers
she didn't
didn't
shed a tear
she walks slowly
her feet heavy on the ground
her pulse is quick
shaking violently
she is almost dying inside
sleepless nights.
brain-wrecks.
negativity.
denial.
hatred.
fear.
numbness.
HOME.
"give everything to Me."
hold back
then
let go
and she never
never
shed a tear
"now, i have every reason
to love
the rain."
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24august09
i might have a reason to be afraid
but i have every reason not to.
i have THE reason not to.
-ara.janelle