Sa Pinilakang-Tabing

Sa isang linggo, araw, oras, minuto, at segundo, marami kaagad ang nangyayari. Para bang isang pelikula na times 56 nga lang ang haba. Detalyado. Lahat ng nangyayari may dahilan. Pinagplanuhan. Iisipin mo nga lang na madaya kasi minsan di mo alam na may eksena palang ganito at ganyan na mangyayari dito, doon, o dyan.

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Siguro nung unang taon mo sa kolehiyo, gusto mong pumasok dahil sa 5-unit subject mo. Pero ngayon, eto ang dahilan para asamin mo kaagad ang weekends.

Tapos nung bata ka palang, hilig na hilig mo ang pagkanta. Ngunit sa kasalukuyan, di mo na alam kung tama ba ang ginagawa mo kasi pati pagbuka ng bibig at technique kung pano kumanta ng maganda ay napupuna na ng mga nakapaligid sa iyo.

At marahil nung natututo kang magbasa ay nabasa mo lahat ng versions ng Aladdin at Little Mermaid, pati yung Kuneho at Pagong. Pero ngayong malaki ka na, halos itapon mo na yung mga librong kaharap mo sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos.

Pero..

Ang dating mga bagay na dati mong nakakaligtaan, ngayo'y unti-unti mo nang napupuna. Pinipilit mo na idugtong ang bawat piraso.

Kahit na 50% lang sa lahat ng natutunan mo ngayong araw ang pumirmi sa iyong memory, pilit mo paring inaalala ang other 50%. Hindi ka man maging successful na makuha ang kalahati ng natanim sa utak mo, alam mo naman sa sarili mo na may na-retrieve kang kahit 15% man lang. (pampalubag-loob.hahahaha)

At kahit maging 200-350 ang grado ng salamin sa kakabasa ng readings na kagila-gilalas ang kapal, matutuwa ka naman sa bandang huli na halos ipa-frame mo na ang lahat ng readings mo dahil sa isang dahilan. Uno ka sa first exam niyo.

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Oha, lahat naman ng pelikula laging may climax. Pero meron din namang pambawi bandang huli para din bumenta. Pahihirapan lang kunyari yung bida. Sampal dito. Tadyak doon. Pero siya parin ang mananalo.

Ang exciting pa dun, hindi mo alam kung ikaw ang LEAD ROLE [qualifications: mestisa/mestiso, matangkad, half-Filipino half-other lahi, pwedeng lagyang ng prostetics, handa sa mga scene na kikidnapin, aapihin, babastusin, atbp.] , SUPPORTING ACTOR/ACTRESS [qualifications: marunong magsabi ng "kaya mo yan!", "ikaw naman kasi e, bakit mo ginawa yun?", at "wag mo syang sasaktan!!"] , o KONTRABIDA [qualifications: may leather/denim jacket, shades, leather shoes, limousine, at mga 4-5 na tauhan w/ complete costume din].

SAAN KA MAGAAUDITION?

LIGHTS. CAMERA. ACTION!

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18july08

ang kinahantungan ng halos lahat ng pag-uusap na nasaksihan ko ngayong araw.

hanep men, parang pelikula ang dating.

baka nga pumatok. anong role ang pipiliin mo?

Pasakali

Magulo.
Hindi matiwasay.
Ako'y nananatiling nakatayo sa dulo ng kawalan.
Hindi malaman kung saan pupunta.
Unti-unting sumisirit.
Nagpupumiglas.
Takbo.
Hanapin mo kung saan ka paroroon.
Dahilan, ano ito?
Basura.
Kalat.
Hindi na dapat ito pinapapatagal.
Nakakayamot.
Itapon.
Kalimutan na ang lahat.
Pasakit.
Pagdurusa.
Masyadong mabigat.
Pasaning nagdadala sa aking lusak.
Putikan.
Hindi ko na sana ito kailangan.
Pero.
Nandito.
Lahat ng ito ay nasa akin lamang.
Akin.
Lamang.

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18july08

"lahat ng ito ay sa akin lamang.."

period. no erase!

Nakakasira nga ng SENSES

kasi sila mismo, wala nang tinatawag na "sense".

naging proud tuloy ako maging isang music major.

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02july08

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yeah..right!

never ever ever again.

Lift Your Head Up. Look Ahead.

Walking down the dim-lit street, I looked at my shifting shadow. I continued to trudge down this beaten path, unaware of anything but the light, the shadow, the road, and me. I realized later on that I was bowing my head so low all along the way. So I decided to lift my head up, I looked ahead only to see a very long stretch of deserted path. To realize my solitude makes me want to walk back from where I started, to choose another path. It was such sweet temptation. Still, I thought about the energy and effort that I exerted to go so long a distance. I continued without even knowing where to end up. Just mere insincts.

A fork in the road. A choice. It's pretty hard because I know there would be no turning back. I squinted my eyes to see the left side. There were so many people dancing, eating, celebrating. Well-cemented road. Interesting. I then shifted my gaze to the right. Very few people were there. They don't have celebrations. I can frankly describe them as poor compared to people in the well-pampered village.

Of course, I walked through the cemented road. Easy. I love parties. They gladly welcomed me, with their smiles though. No discourse took place at all. They instantly gave me food and wine to dine. This is paradise for me after the long walk. After a day or two of full happiness, I decided to continue my journey. Just ten steps from where I came from, I saw a bridge on my left leading to the poor village. I tried to find a reason why those rich people would build a connection with the fortuneless.

Heaviness. Sudden heaviness. Chains on my hands and my feet. Who put those? Maybe I pondered too much that I didn't even notice those chains. Or maybe I was enjoying too much.

I crossed the bridge to the destitute place. It's time, I guess, to find some real adventure. I walked and walked, bearing the heaviness of the chains. At the end of the bridge, some man took of my chains. I was so relieved, not expecting what would really happen next.

It's more massive than the chains that once were on my hands and feet. I almost got on my knees, trying to bear its weight. I've made the wrong decision, I thought. Still, I walked on the dirt road. A step. A pain on my back. A drop of sweat. This is when I knew the meaning of hardship and pain. I cried.

Time passed by, maybe days or years, I didn't really know. The burden on my back became a part of me. Wounds became normal. The thought of it almost gave me sustenance. I have no idea when it would end, this burden. I didn't lose hope. Why? I think I just have to survive. I had the driving force, but not the energy.

One last time. I stepped. I perspired. I fell down. It's as if I'm gonna die. I really want to. Just when I felt that I'm going to draw my last breath, the heaviness just dissolved on thin air. Maybe I'm dead. Or maybe not.

I then realized, I was again walking (or struggling to walk) with my head bowed. I lifted my head. The most beautiful place I've ever seen. Paradise. Tranquility. I remembered the well-off people on my right. I glanced. The road ended. A deep ravine. I was surprised why many fell off the road. Weren't they looking ahead?

Maybe they were looking at themselves, head bowed.
Maybe they didn't see the bridge earlier.
Or they ignored it.
Or they were destined not to be here.

I'm glad I'm chosen.

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04june08

i'm glad i was chosen to have

God's saving grace to choose Him more than

anything else in the world. ^__^

Purihin Ang Ngalan Nya!!

"Pitong libo, isang daan at pitong isla. Labing-pitong rehiyon. Luzon, Visayas at Mindanao. Pilipinas.

Marami man tayong pagkakaiba, magkakalayo man ang ating kinaroroonan, magkakaiba man ang ating dialekto, isa lang ang ating pinupuri.

Ipinapamalas ng susunod na komposisyon ang pagkakaisa ng ating mga puso sa pagtaas ng pangalan ng nag-iisang Tagapaglikha ng langit at lupa. Gamit ang iba't-ibang dialekto mula sa Luzon, Visayas, at Mindanao, inihahayag nito ang iisang kahulugan: "Purihin Ka. Walang katulad ang pag-ibig Mo, hindi mapapantayan. Laging bago. Napakasarap sa piling Mo at doo'y hindi ako matitinag. Banal Ka, Panginoong Diyos sa lahat. Purihin ang ngalan Mo."

Samahan natin ang CPA Worship Team sa pagsamba sa Panginoon sa pamamagitan ng awiting "Glong-ngo Ko". Ating pag-isahin ang ating mga puso at mga boses sa pagsamba sa Panginoon ng pag-ibig. Purihin ang Kanyang ngalan!"

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06june08

eto ang ginawa kong "narration" para sa kantang "Glong-ngo Ko" na tinugtog ng CPA Worship team..kasama na din sila Jeryal, Bojo, Aaron, Bien, Kuya Malvin, at Lui. Ako nalang ang gumawa nito sa dahilan na hindi ako pinayagan pumunta ng Laguna. Layo daw kasi e! Ahahahaha. :]